|Photo: Mary Poggemann - Duke Farms Orchid Greenhouse - May 27, 2013|
Dear Friends and Family...
It's been quite a while since I've posted anything here. I guess you could say that I've been overwhelmed by life, living, and the pursuit of nothingness for so long that I couldn't fathom that you would be interested in anything I had to say.
I am writing tonight to say that I am sorry -- I was wrong to abandon my blog and my few faithful readers. I would like to ask your forgiveness and ask you for a second chance to do something worthwhile with my God given time and talent.
I am writing tonight to share my shortcomings and to ask your help -- All too often I think of things that I should do; but, that's all I do... I think about them. God has been reminding me lately that thinking about doing things isn't enough. I need to put feet to my thoughts and do something!
As a result I am right here, right now, asking you to help me DO what I am THINKING about. I need some accountability partners to help me keep moving in the right direction. Or, if I am honest about it, to help me keep moving.
My dad used to say lead, follow, or get out of the way -- I haven't been doing any of those things lately. I've been procrastinating in my own little corner of the world and not doing much at all productive.
It's time for me to DO SOMETHING about that. SOME of the things I must DO include...
I must reconnect with God! -- I must ACTIVELY love and pursue HIM! -- I must let go of the depression that has been gripping my life and hold on to God for love, affection, and direction. I've gotten in the habit of doing nothing and that is a terrible habit to feed. When I do nothing I begin to think I am nothing. God doesn't make junk; so, I must act like I'm not junk!
I must read my Bible and attend church services -- I let my feelings get hurt a couple of years back and found it easier hide at home than to face my problems and the people who loved me. I walked away from God, from my church family, and from my friends. I could not swallow my pride and look beyond my hurt feelings.
I didn't let go of my faith in God; I know He is God and that He is all powerful. But, I stopped serving Him. I stopped attending church, and I consciously decided to let go of all the people in my life that might have been an encouragement to me in my time of spiritual and emotional pain. I chose to wallow in self hatred, and self pity, and depression, rather than to embrace God and His people.
So... My task for this week is to read my Bible every day and to attend church services.
Would you, as my accountability partner, please ask me how I am doing and hold me accountable for this weeks task? I would really appreciate it.